Perspective

I'm doing a back to back blog because I want to write about some light things

and some more serious things but they just didn't fit in the same blog.

This has been a really good week for me. I would even go as far to say that I am finally starting to feel like I can breathe again. At first I thought it was all the prayers I know have been offered in our behalf but as I pondered further I realize a few other things contributed to that as well. I'm really happy to be finished with HSA. It was not something I sought out and longer than I had anticipated (2 years) and with everything that happened with Kai last year I could have pulled out gracefully but I stuck it out and I'm glad I did. I feel like I did my best, I gave it my all and that the school is better off for having had our officers in for the past two years. I feel good closure with that.

The next thing is that the year is up. I will no longer have to go through any first without Kai. I've done all the birthdays, holidays, seasons. I know we will still have melancholy days, we will always miss him but I feel that the worst is behind me. I made it through this year and I'm still standing.

I am so grateful for each and everyone of the amazing people in our lives. Especially our family. All the kind thoughts, prayers, gestures of love.

I watched Noah and Blaze playing the other day and thought "where would Noah be without Blaze. She has brought him such love and joy." And I think that of each of you. We have always had just the right person to be there for us at the exact moment we needed you. Thank you for that. Words are simply not enough but they are the best I have for now.

"Sometime in the eternities to come, we will see that our trials were calculated to cause us to turn to our Heavenly Father for strength and support. Any affliction or suffering we are called upon to bear may be directed to give us experience, refinement, and perfection."

--Delbert L. Stapley